It matters to me...it is my conscience...not yours

The unrelated:-

Hey there ppl...long time no blog...relatively long for me anyway....whirlwind events keep coming...all at once...a tribute to a person I met only twice...Im sorry to hear about what happened...I hope you are in a better place...

Its been two months and a bit since you left...there's still a gaping hole where you were, the hurt is still there..ebbing, dying, but never fully going away...I cherish the memories, swallow the bitter lesson, I know you are happier for it, then so be it...I can only hope...eventually...
I hope he treats you right..whoever he is or will be...yet again I hope that it will not be? The pain...

To YOU...I sincerely apologize....I couldnt bring myself to continue this way, that would be a leaden burden on my conscience, the fact that you were more so than I, however much hope you had in me, I had to do this, for otherwise, the hurt would be far deeper...for you..I could not bring myself to continue, not in my present frame of mind & heart..in essence a heart divided?That would be a sacrilege to your efforts and YOU deserve better...its not anyone's fault the timing was wrong...I hope you can forgive me...Im sorry.