On....

On you...

Its been just over a month that you've left...I never believed this but time does heal...I still feel the hurt sometimes, but its slowly ebbing away...the times we had, I will always cherish, however, most of all, I will cherish what you gave me...by leaving me, you took a part of me which left a void for me to realise that I needed to fill it with something else valuable in life, THE LESSON. In the past month, and even now, I can only hope that we will be able to remain close eventually...for it was only YOU that was able to do this to me...I hope....with all my heart...thank you...for without you I would not have been able to grow stronger...

Career advancement....vs...???

Had some trouble with our machine at work today, finally the engineer came...fm S'pore...so he's doin his job when out of d blue I have sudden 'inspiration' to ask...
"So you fly in & out of different countries most of the time?"
"Yeah, it can get v tiring, especially since I dont like to travel"
"Ok, I guess that means u fly out for a couple of weeks then head back to home base only for 3 days, that kind of engineer job level?"
"THANK GOD no...I would quit straightaway..family wouldn't be able to take it"
"Hmm..I know a medical engineer who's semi-permanently posted overseas, 6 mths at a time.."
"OMG, hw can the family stand it?"

Basically at this point I realised we in the medical field do sacrifice quite a bit...I mean lets take our resident surgeon, who flies in in the morning, does the surgery & flies out at night or 1st thing the next day back to Singapore to attend to patients there...or our own local doctor who 4 nights out of 7 is on duty, as is his wife...or lets take my own boss who goes home at 7 almost every night, sometimes coming back to work at midnight when there's emergencies, or Sundays..I mean...are we missing something here? Strive to save so many lives, or make others' lives better,neglect our own...for what?Doctors (overseas) with high divorce rates, neglected families...or singles in this field whose time is so sapped up by work that personal & social life becomes stunted (I personally know 1)...I guess that is the price to pay...its like nursing, its a vocation *a job not for the sake of working but for the interest to sacrifice for others* all too often people work for the wrong reasons....maybe a step back for re-evaluation will work wonders....does wonders for professionalism as well within the job...anyway enough ranting & raving....for now...Im off to re-evaluate my life...

So what?

I swear thickness in the head...can be correlated to density of bone matter in the abovementioned place...I mean seriously how many times do I need to say the same thing so that someone will get it?Ok fine..lets put it this way, isnt it not the mature thing to do that since there is really no other intentions other than to make social contacts, to make allowance for social contact?N seriously, there should be no ultimatum as to choice between the abovementioned or friendship..especially when it involves contacts potentially to further potential business relations...OK since this is my blog...I might as well let it all hang out...peeps...someone please justify spreading rumors abt losing temper & slapping the table BUT not mentioning this fact: when in fact the same person had already asked me to 'settle it outside'..THRICE!!! As in all-out down n dirty caveman style brawling...For God's sake, grow up!!! Since Im whining here might as well let it all out...so anyway I believe I have my right to talk to any person I want, make contacts with any person I want, without the perception that by doing that means automatically hitting on the person...THIS I believe is the mature way of thinking...otherwise this whole world would come to a standstill where by talking to any girl means hitting on them?Please duh!! And since Im on this topic...no sane person would ask his friend to choose between 1)friendship and 2)not contacting a girl which is liked not by me, for possibly business relations purposes...I mean, which would you choose? So in the reality, to choose 1 means that whenever I see that girl, at a social funtion organised by daddy for business friends...I should turn away n avoid her?? What rubbish and its sad to listen to such drivel...peeps feel free to comment...& I maintain my stand on this matter...On a brighter note, today went well at work for me!!!yippeeee!!!!!

Ironically....

Yay!! Parents came back already...woah talk abt a shopping trip...finally i get a pendrive of my own and hmm other stuff s well...anyway so thing is things happen for a reason and only now I can see the full circle of what is happening...lets just say Ive just about reached ground zero and where the old me would mope about it, I think I will approach this as the proverbial blank sheet of paper and rewrite my life character on it...after all I think thats the least I deserve to do to myself...mind you, after whats been done to me...I think I deserve to at least see what I can do with my abilities...why should one be constrained by peer pressure and expectations...??Or not...

I wonder how that happened...

Here I am, back again...a situation happened yesterday which got me thinking, you know with all that government initiative for encouraging SME (small-medium enterprises) to start up & contribute to the economy..has led to a mushrooming of small mum-n-pop enterprises..which is all great and fine..until what I experienced last night got me thinking...I think we're missing something fundamental here...
So Im with my friend going around looking for a night snack when we get to this place in the estates...so order 2 packs of food, costs $2, pass the lady $10.. can you believe the reply was
"Sorry boss, no change available.." hmm...why? "Boss, my boss took away all the change already" Uhh....what followed was a total 'strip' search of the car to dig up all the coins we could find...ended up with a grand total of.......$1.80!! So how? "Ok lah, wat to do.."
Someone please tell me is that totally unreal or not, you're running a midnight business & any basic common sense should know that as long as your business is open you should leave some change...so because of this the business has effectively lost profit???hmm...
anyway yea on another note...its annoying when our intentions are misinterpreted...especially when friendships are concerned...most especially so when the intention has been attempted to be clarified twice but not taken...I hope that it all clears up in the end...happiness is a prized commodity and that should not be taken for granted...on a happier note, thank God the parents are coming back...now the house will be full again...

On growing up...and Harry Potter

So I was thumbing thru d local newspaper the other day and came across an article on Daniel Radcliffe and how he had starred in a film with sex scenes and hence was seen as an automatic 'outcasting' from the Harry Potter 'genre' so to speak..the whole doesnt-fit-with-the-image-of Harry Potter anymore...and that got me thinking...he's finally grown up..its the whole McCauley Culkin (I spelt that right??) drama all over again, albeit with a tad more success...this whole outgrowing of a role which a person is associated with (is it typecasting??)..its time to taste the world at its fullest, and not just a piece of it, not to linger with something but to move on, to chase the cheese so to speak..on the other hand I was watching "The Devil Wears Prada" and the whole story just hit me in between the eyes like a truck...wow that is the epitome of what happens to people when they subtly get sidetracked in the quest for success and cast away all others important...I can humbly say that that movie was a tad educational and brought home a few facts to myself....but hey who said life was a bed of roses, even roses have thorns..urgh..dont remind me...roses...overpriced only on a certain week as if its the sacred offering & the key towards a certain goal, yet is priced as a normal flower the other 358 days of the week, talk about irony, hypocrasy, etc etc...go figure!!

A post about nothing...

Finally, I can step back, relax and unwind...after a highly eventful friday-saturday, its nice to be able to step back, relax and sit at home doing nothing on Sunday..I even found time to catch up on movies & go hiking...what a relief...anyway today is d last day of the CNY celebs...nothing to celebrate anyway...hope everything turns out alright....what an eventful CNY this year was...lets hope that all goes well for the rest of the year...anyway Im off now...