Wow what a cake...

So Im at a birthday party, my dear cuz is a grand 4 yrs old...so so cute....its nice to have something to celebrate....so yea I walk into my uncle's house n the first thing that strikes me (literally) is a kid dat was running across d living room..ahahaa..2nd thing that strikes me is "woah, dats a lot of kids" hmm...but yea d party was great, plenty of catching up w uncles n aunties, nice to be able to unwind for a bit...anyway its a usual family & friends birthday affair, typically messy n organised chaos, if you know what i mean..then the birthday cake comes out...hmm..thats 3 tiers of cake, for a 4 yr old b'day girl...n you know what, it was brought down in individual cake boxes by granddad...wow...thats nice...anyway like I said, it was great...gotta go catch some zzz's nw...

O...k....how much more can a guy take?

It all comes to a head now...earlier today I thought I had it bad, but I was coping fine, was ok..yesterday's emergency scheduled surgery for today went ok..so collective sighs of relief fm everyone in d office, then *bam* emergency surgery at 1600 hrs...wth?? time check 1545 hrs..wat?? Anyway d old me would be mad at it, but the new me, I just grin n bear, n u knw wat its alright. But dats not d point, today i learnt that my own problems are trivial and this is d final lesson for me. Or so I thought..so at 1620 hrs two 'kids' (cos they're only 18) comes in and wanna donate blood..ok so their dad's the patient..right daddy's blood is O Positive, n so I check d son's blood type first..nw Im normally not attuned to patient's feelings cos dat is rightly professional to get on w d job..but when he came in with wet eyes, I mean I can understand cos dad's in surgery & it was already trauma for d poor kid to have that I mean wat can u expect fm dat tender age, but u knw when he broke down when I told him that he was B Positive blood type...& his sister was B type as well...my heart broke there & then..luckily his older bro n frens helped out to get other friends to donate..anyway thats stage 1, nw comes stage 2..just reached home fm 1 hospital at 2130 hrs after having my heart shattered in an argument, call up my cuz..n HE says he's going to hospital..Im like "why are u going to hospital?" and he goes "Uncle Two fell down and is in hospital nw, unstable and unconscious, with a fractured pelvis (hip bone) & 2 vertebrae (spine) fracture something or other.." Right. "Ok can u drop over and pick me up n we go visit him" *still have no clue as to hw serious it is* until i reach the hospital and see him lying almost comatose on the bed with drips everywhere, connected to an ECG machine and getting blood transfusion cos his blood pressure is too low & unstable..with d doctors description of injured bladder, fractured pelvis (hip bone), broken arm, hopefully will stable within 24 hrs...probably need 2nd surgery to stabilise the hip bone fracture...then it hits me...i dunno how to describe that feeling...I seriously dont...

The mind and heart association..

The mind and d heart are two fickle associations...seriously I think its all in d head...u know how u long for something or some situation to happen, and get depressed over it, then u get this crushed feeling in your heart, sorrow and all dat..then when ur bz at work, it all goes away because u concentrate...at work. But the minute, the VERY minute you get spare time to yourself it all comes back...like I said, fickle. So the only solution is?Get as tired as possible, so that u drop dead literally (well, almost) & not have to think abt it..makes sense...if it wasnt so exhausting...well..life goes on, and it gets a little, minuscle, but little better each day to face reality & make sure life goes on...the thing is, maybe, just maybe, I might be able to give myself wholly again....in the meantime just be happy for others...

Why do people even bother?

SO here I am writing with a dull headache..why, you may ask do I have a headache..well the story goes like this: After everything that had happened to me in the past couple of weeks, things finally came to a head...the ups and (mostly) downs culimated in an unplanned impromptu drinking session...well, to summarise it up, I was downing wine by the glassful when it all rushed to my head...hmm...from wat little i can remember is along the lines of this.."...hmm its cold drinking this is nice....omg why cant i see anything, its all gone white...y am I in d toilet puking? wow I can feel it smash through my head...y am I puking again?wow, I never been able to walk this not-straight before...crap, nw I cant walk, need to lie down...hmm who's driving?its my car...crap I need to puke.." SO then I open the door, start puking out of d car..hmm get home, puke again n drop to bed..wake up this morning with a headache..but yea I think Ive puked all d sorrow out of my system nw and then I feel closure nw...I think the upcoming days are gonna b fairly educational and I feel that Ive progressed a step more in life...now to deal with this headache...ciao!!Except dat Ive one piece of advice...dont drink to drown sorrows, its not worth d trouble...

Oh well...

Life's like a box of chocolates...you never knw wat ur gonna get..oh well, life's lessons learnt, I played a game with too high stakes and lost it all...hurts like hell but yea life needs to go on...anyways Im off to sleep nw...lets see what tomorrow brings...

Another CNY open house...work tmrw...

Another open house..this time in Bunut area...hmm I noticed something in common with wealthy families...or is it just me?? Why do all of them display all their family photos everywhere???I guess its what gives them happiness that allows them to do their money making thing whole-heartedly....hmmm...same caterers so food yesterday n today was similar...funnily enough when I go to I-Lotus to eat it seems so-so only but by catering their food seems better...anyway tmrw start work...its a new change of attitude for me I guess...considering its a new year and all...this year onwards should be a good 'un...lets hope everything else in my life turns for d better s well...cheers all I'm off...

CNY visit..wow...canna I strive to achieve tat??

Oh my God!! I can't ever believe people can be so wealthy...I mean, I know some rich people who have a decent 2 storey house n a few cars...but this just blows me away...so anyway yesterday my dad goes like: "My golf friend ask us to go to his open house for CNY visiting, must go ah..." Yea ok ok...another dull bland old aunty-uncle meeting...wait a minute...we're going to Beribi...huge as in HUGE place...its like the gate alone is prob worth more than my car..so its a long driveway w a garage which has FANS..who uses fans in the garage??I mean are your cars hot???so anyway we step into d house n "OHMYGOD..this looks exactly like Empire Hotel!" Ive never seen a house with a huge spiral staircase leading up to the 1st floor b4...mind u there are 3 floors!!!I mean ok theres a bar, 3 seperate living rooms, a karaoke room, huge dining room with louis vitton-alike furniture which looks out to a garden patio n coconut trees i mean its like a hotel..n omg why is d place so cold?duh! its all marbled floor...anyway yea we went on d grand tour...huge bedrooms with networked system with laptops n desktops in every room..n omg is dat a walk in closet and a jacuzzi in d master bedroom n why oh why is d place so cold!!!Anyway everyone had a good time food was good..its an eye opener..anyway I gtg nw...wondering exactly hw to get wealth like dat...d house is so so so comfy...