Its official...Martini Asti is EVIL!!! with a capital E!!

Work...emergencies...dealt with it...close case...then Dinner out again..I swear I think Im gonna end up like a pig soon...but since Im on a quest for good food...the price of living huh...but yea went to dinner tonight...did the whole 3 course thingy..3 ppl, 2 bottles, 1 WB Merlot...ok la, but I reckon it was a bit too early to open it...but it was ok with the steak tho...when it came to dessert...omg a light mousse topped with cream and Martini Asti...omg omg omg...I can NOT believe what Im tasting!!!! It compliments each other so SO well that I went into dreamland...as in start with the usual sip n taste which went to pouring it right into the mousse itself & having it there & then...& then to top it off had another LONG car ride as well...thank God I wasnt driving...perfect end to the day... ;) definately NOT looking forward to working tmrw..esp since its a PUBLIC HOLIDAY!!! oh well...

Kenangan Terindah...sampai masa untuk diketepikan bagi kejayaan...

I dont know why I feel so out of place today with myself...its the whole day that I was feeling out of kilter & it was only when This song "Kenangan Terindah" came up at 8.30pm that it all came in a rush to me...everything that has happened...its time for me to finally sort out my life, my fears and my direction for the future...moving on is one thing, but has anyone have any idea just how difficult it can be? Im trying, God knows Im trying but hey cut me some slack here, throw me a bone, give me some moral support or something..Im doing this alone here...friends can only get you so far & dear cuz thanks a lot for your advice & moral support however its the final 10% which is the hardest & ultimately the only person who can hurdle it is myself...

Of particular note is how a certain someone's encouragement, not by means of direct moral support, but by a roundabout way of accepting me for who I am, unpieced together as yet I may be, has helped me a lot in this matter..uncanningly giving me an outlet by allowing me to direct my frustration with myself in another way, as well as getting my mind off issues, has kept me sane and off the brink of depression...thanks...you have an eerily accurate method of analysing me and pointing out to me each & everything...

Anyway for the moment I think Ive got issues to work on still..I guess its just me that when Im in transition Im not in the mood to meet anyone until I deem myself acceptable to myself before I meet others..to all my true friends out there who have not heard from me since Feb 14th...Im stil alive but bear with me, I think it will be some time yet....

rollercoaster...

Finally I got the time to sit down & continue my blog...hectic these few days I tell you...it seems like im a hamster running in the 'wheel'..so anyway met someone who's really interesting...hahaha...I dont know but Ive never had such far reaching & interesting conversations..anyway yea..so there I was at a cafe, doing wat everyone does, ie chat abt nothing...well those who know me know dat I wear a certain bracelet, tigers eye to be exact...well anyway we were jus chatting abt nothing when suddenly wor-

*points towards me across d table, fingers slightly downwards* "May I take a look at your balls?"

What? *mind befuddled and extremely confused*

*still pointing at the bracelet* "I know Im not supposed to touch it but is it ok if I take a look at ur balls?"

*Looks towards where the finger is pointing-oh* "You mean this bracelet? Arent they called beads?"

"Beads, balls-same thing, round..so can I see?"

Anyway yea, I wonder...but the moment was hilarious...oh oh...on another note Ive never gone on such a long drive..I mean I have la, like for 1/2 hr like dat, I love drives but dat night I think we were driving continously for 2hrs straight..amazing...conversation flowed like endlessly...thanks a lot hey, it was refreshing...

Oh and the canteen has been taken over by none other than the Empire Hotel & Country Club management...this is how the conversation went btw me & the staff-

"I'll have the meatballs & veg, and can I sample the chicken so I can order it tomorrow"
"Sorry sir, we wont be having this tomorrow.."
"Ok then I'll order it when it comes around next week's menu then"
"Actually sir, according to our chef, we will be changing our menu everyday so its not guaranteed that it will come again soon"

Right. I think this is a very good thing, for the food lover in me, its going to be a WONDERFUL time!!!! yippeee bring it on...5 star hotel food at canteen prices....gastronomic adventure begins!!!

T'was a good time...we should do it again...

Im pretty happy with myself today....Ive had the greatest time of late...300 is excellent, touching at times...although there is an opinion that its a movie for both guys and girls but to me I reckon there's a bit too much gory details for that...but who am I to complain....company was great, although food was a bit off par but who cares?? Smashing...we should do it again...although next time Im driving & we're going someplace else fro makanz...hehehe...now got new kaki to go makan...yay!! Time to start off culinary adventure...now to sleep 1st...being woken up at 3.45am to go to work is a bit....interesting so to speak...so I gotta catch some zzz's 1st...

Mmmm...

You know...I just realised exactly how much I love good food, accompanied by a gd wine...I mean I just came back from Deal's, and it brought home the truth about how pleasant it is for me to have good food, wine and good company...its like Ive found my solace...my relaxation space...my outlet to stress...I feel sated...I think it will be my mission to eke out more good places to dine in, fine dining...that should make things great for me...and really honestly..I think after what happened..Ive pretty much made up my mind about the type of company I would like to keep around...*lets just see what happens*...which are on my level or above..anyway let it all work out itself..Im gonna crash...

Blog about....???

So...as the days go by....suddenly I realise its already end of MARCH!!! Oh dear, where has time flown to...what has happened?? Ive got writer's block now..have no idea what to write...oh finally I've managed to pare down & categorise the music in my Ipod...finally I know where all the songs are...*whew* dunno abt u guys, but clearing up clutter is very therapeutic...I feel a sense of clearing and it seems to make me feel happier than I ever was since..a month ago...

By the way, if anyone reading this blog happens to be in Brunei, is male, and yearns for a refreshing range of men's shoes, could do with going down to Lai Lai in Seri Batu Satu..the men's shoe range there are youthfully designed and believe me more is to come...Ive personally not seen such fresh modern and bold designs which are so able to carry off the executive 'officer' look while being trendy and bold at the same time at any other shop at the prices they carry...take a look especially in the coming months...there will be even bolder designs coming...

Hmm...I better get off....I need mua sleep, got work tmrw...ciaozz

On....

On you...

Its been just over a month that you've left...I never believed this but time does heal...I still feel the hurt sometimes, but its slowly ebbing away...the times we had, I will always cherish, however, most of all, I will cherish what you gave me...by leaving me, you took a part of me which left a void for me to realise that I needed to fill it with something else valuable in life, THE LESSON. In the past month, and even now, I can only hope that we will be able to remain close eventually...for it was only YOU that was able to do this to me...I hope....with all my heart...thank you...for without you I would not have been able to grow stronger...