*snaps his neck around looking for where two weeks have gone to...*

Two weeks..nothing happened...day after day..living one day at a time...its all a blur...
so sad...life is like a routine for me...work eat sleep work eat sleep...got a new staff which is great when one staff is going on leave...but training is so difficult when there's loads of work to do..oh well short term pain long term gain...

Oh I'm happy, I finally got a watch to replace my old watch of 7 years...apparently its a combination of 3 yrs of b'day presents at one go...thanks Mum & Dad...

funny conversation with a friend just now...she says that as you go up the executive ladder (ie career path..) the balls go smaller...eg coolies play soccer which is a big 'ball' while the execs in the office play golf which is a 'small' ball...

this was my reply...

"yeah but funny how the higher the ladder you climb the 'stick' gets longer...go figure...

Anyway thats all the energy I have for blogging..I swear Im numbed no more motivation for doing anything..nothing interests me now..I need something interesting to do...thinking..thinking...oh well cant be bothered I think I'll go sleep now...

It matters to me...it is my conscience...not yours

The unrelated:-

Hey there ppl...long time no blog...relatively long for me anyway....whirlwind events keep coming...all at once...a tribute to a person I met only twice...Im sorry to hear about what happened...I hope you are in a better place...

Its been two months and a bit since you left...there's still a gaping hole where you were, the hurt is still there..ebbing, dying, but never fully going away...I cherish the memories, swallow the bitter lesson, I know you are happier for it, then so be it...I can only hope...eventually...
I hope he treats you right..whoever he is or will be...yet again I hope that it will not be? The pain...

To YOU...I sincerely apologize....I couldnt bring myself to continue this way, that would be a leaden burden on my conscience, the fact that you were more so than I, however much hope you had in me, I had to do this, for otherwise, the hurt would be far deeper...for you..I could not bring myself to continue, not in my present frame of mind & heart..in essence a heart divided?That would be a sacrilege to your efforts and YOU deserve better...its not anyone's fault the timing was wrong...I hope you can forgive me...Im sorry.

Back to simple life?? What about common sense?

Just the other day, I was thinking "hmm...what to do for our happy hour..dont want the usual overpriced drink at a cafe.."
So I called the usual 'gang' and went down to the wharf in town..where all the satay stalls are...and I realised that I'd almost forgotten the beauty of sitting at a riverside table with a view of Kg Ayer on the other side, watching the sun set, having a few sticks of satay and coconut juice...traditional fare...although there were a few silly things like...you know there's a zebra crossing which spans the road from the riverside stalls to the parking lots opposite and absolutely no cars stop for you when you want to cross the road...or the slight whiff of fermenting river water due to the amount of rubbish in it...well I guess that adds to the quaint sights and sounds (smells??) of Brunei

In another time frame, last night I was going home from work...now I'm making a right turn to get up to the highway across a lane, now this junction is dark, fine I can see this one car's headlights, wait for it to pass, then go, then suddenly I see a dark blue Honda CRX with no headlights on screaming in VTEC zone down the road & I got the shock of my life....I mean its logical that if you want to kill yourself by limiting your vision fine, dont take collateral damage with you...after crossing the road, barely, looking into the rearview mirror and see that its brake lights ARE on but not its headlights...prat...

Recipie for??

Hello world...Im back!! If you're wondering where Ive been these couple of days well Ive been travelling with friends...okok...yea it was just over the sea to Labuan (*AGAIN??!!!!*) Well I was craving...so anyway here's a recipie for craziness...get off boat dehydrated...buy a few bottles of wine..go to Murphy's..have a beer along with Bangers & Mash (fancy name for sausages and mashed potato), have a liquer mix..go back and open a wine...finish that, bring TWO bottles to Sheraton with intention for dinner BUT have a cocktail first at the bar...then go down to dinner..now here is where it gets crazy...ignore one of YOUR own bottles while paying the corkage fee, to purchase a bottle of SHERATON's wine (well..no arguments but it was Californian Napa Valley Zinfandel, who can resist??) with dinner...then peruse a Sheraton voucher to purchase 1kg (ONEWHOLEKILOOFCAKE WHAT WERE WE THINKING OMG!!!!) go back and open yet another bottle of beer...u knw, this gives me a sense of deja-vu here...anyway yea u know what...after that dinner in Sheraton Labuan..I question the economics of having dinner in Sheraton Brunei...dinner for 3 at Sheraton Brunei costs roughly around B$150+...while that Labuan dinner for 3, including the Zinfandel cost RM$160 (ok so we had a Starwood card but RM160??!!!) as always its Sheraton, excellent food & service...good company (u know who you are amongst us 3 but u were on Cloud 9 after 1st realising that they had that Zinfandel, and then drinking it!!!) anyway yea all in all a great holiday, pity we got rained out for a bit...but yea..memories to remember by..good food, wine and laughs all the way....cheers, bottoms up, toasts to health, work, whatnot.....Im goin to bed now..

Woah...now I know wat a hamster feels like...

So I just came back from work...took the long way home..relaxing with the music pumped up and generally just letting pressure seep away...then I just thought...I'm just like a hamster..you know, when you walk into a pet shop and see those hamsters in cages, with a few sticks to climb on and a big wheel to exercise..where they trundle on and run..going nowhere...just like today...get to work, do what is supposed to be done..then *bam*, break down..so there goes a long process of transferring to another machine to run the same tests over again..what difference is that compared to said hamster running in the wheel, going nowhere? Just a thought...does anyone else feel that way? Well those that are in a 9-5 job anyway...I can just see it..

US -7am wake up - 8am work - 12pm lunch - 1pm work - 5pm home
Said hamster - 7am wake up - 8am get on wheel - 12pm lunch - 1pm get on wheel - 5pm get off wheel

Anyone see the similarities here?? Or begs to differ...hmm I wonder..

On and on and on...

So I step into the house after a 24 hr emergency shift at work...its all dark even though its only 9pm..ok everyone went up de...*OUCH* who in the world leaves a new study table in the middle of the living room...so anyway I bounce my way upstairs on one & a half feet and Im met by my a green monster which resembles my dad...oh wait..it is my dad; and what is that stench--wet grass...urgh! Apparently its a herbal skin rejuvenation thingy...oh well...stumble into my own room...aagghh...wat is dat smell?? oh...its the smell of new furniture..a new bed in fact...hmm..finally I can sleep without worrying about rolling off or waking up in the middle of the night with a sore back...hahaha...woah tired...I think Im gonna crash nw....sleeps catching up with me...

Crazy...

Work is defined as (by me anyway) something which is enjoyed occasionally, not more often than not, which does its duty to pay bills..well and then there are crazy days...like today when I had to go back to the office (on a Sunday!!) to sort out a machine problem...right after being on duty from Saturday morning..hmm..anyway thank God it was minor..then I had 'chores'...car duty, went looking for a clock for the dining area...I love IKEA...they have many nice prints..pity I dont hv d house to put it in...decided on getting some stuff for house decor...all in all a v bz day...n its nice to be able to sit down nw n put down my thoughts on 'paper' and clear my mind for tomorrow...its gonna be bz...I can feel it in my bones...