Ironically....

Yay!! Parents came back already...woah talk abt a shopping trip...finally i get a pendrive of my own and hmm other stuff s well...anyway so thing is things happen for a reason and only now I can see the full circle of what is happening...lets just say Ive just about reached ground zero and where the old me would mope about it, I think I will approach this as the proverbial blank sheet of paper and rewrite my life character on it...after all I think thats the least I deserve to do to myself...mind you, after whats been done to me...I think I deserve to at least see what I can do with my abilities...why should one be constrained by peer pressure and expectations...??Or not...

I wonder how that happened...

Here I am, back again...a situation happened yesterday which got me thinking, you know with all that government initiative for encouraging SME (small-medium enterprises) to start up & contribute to the economy..has led to a mushrooming of small mum-n-pop enterprises..which is all great and fine..until what I experienced last night got me thinking...I think we're missing something fundamental here...
So Im with my friend going around looking for a night snack when we get to this place in the estates...so order 2 packs of food, costs $2, pass the lady $10.. can you believe the reply was
"Sorry boss, no change available.." hmm...why? "Boss, my boss took away all the change already" Uhh....what followed was a total 'strip' search of the car to dig up all the coins we could find...ended up with a grand total of.......$1.80!! So how? "Ok lah, wat to do.."
Someone please tell me is that totally unreal or not, you're running a midnight business & any basic common sense should know that as long as your business is open you should leave some change...so because of this the business has effectively lost profit???hmm...
anyway yea on another note...its annoying when our intentions are misinterpreted...especially when friendships are concerned...most especially so when the intention has been attempted to be clarified twice but not taken...I hope that it all clears up in the end...happiness is a prized commodity and that should not be taken for granted...on a happier note, thank God the parents are coming back...now the house will be full again...

On growing up...and Harry Potter

So I was thumbing thru d local newspaper the other day and came across an article on Daniel Radcliffe and how he had starred in a film with sex scenes and hence was seen as an automatic 'outcasting' from the Harry Potter 'genre' so to speak..the whole doesnt-fit-with-the-image-of Harry Potter anymore...and that got me thinking...he's finally grown up..its the whole McCauley Culkin (I spelt that right??) drama all over again, albeit with a tad more success...this whole outgrowing of a role which a person is associated with (is it typecasting??)..its time to taste the world at its fullest, and not just a piece of it, not to linger with something but to move on, to chase the cheese so to speak..on the other hand I was watching "The Devil Wears Prada" and the whole story just hit me in between the eyes like a truck...wow that is the epitome of what happens to people when they subtly get sidetracked in the quest for success and cast away all others important...I can humbly say that that movie was a tad educational and brought home a few facts to myself....but hey who said life was a bed of roses, even roses have thorns..urgh..dont remind me...roses...overpriced only on a certain week as if its the sacred offering & the key towards a certain goal, yet is priced as a normal flower the other 358 days of the week, talk about irony, hypocrasy, etc etc...go figure!!

A post about nothing...

Finally, I can step back, relax and unwind...after a highly eventful friday-saturday, its nice to be able to step back, relax and sit at home doing nothing on Sunday..I even found time to catch up on movies & go hiking...what a relief...anyway today is d last day of the CNY celebs...nothing to celebrate anyway...hope everything turns out alright....what an eventful CNY this year was...lets hope that all goes well for the rest of the year...anyway Im off now...

Wow what a cake...

So Im at a birthday party, my dear cuz is a grand 4 yrs old...so so cute....its nice to have something to celebrate....so yea I walk into my uncle's house n the first thing that strikes me (literally) is a kid dat was running across d living room..ahahaa..2nd thing that strikes me is "woah, dats a lot of kids" hmm...but yea d party was great, plenty of catching up w uncles n aunties, nice to be able to unwind for a bit...anyway its a usual family & friends birthday affair, typically messy n organised chaos, if you know what i mean..then the birthday cake comes out...hmm..thats 3 tiers of cake, for a 4 yr old b'day girl...n you know what, it was brought down in individual cake boxes by granddad...wow...thats nice...anyway like I said, it was great...gotta go catch some zzz's nw...

O...k....how much more can a guy take?

It all comes to a head now...earlier today I thought I had it bad, but I was coping fine, was ok..yesterday's emergency scheduled surgery for today went ok..so collective sighs of relief fm everyone in d office, then *bam* emergency surgery at 1600 hrs...wth?? time check 1545 hrs..wat?? Anyway d old me would be mad at it, but the new me, I just grin n bear, n u knw wat its alright. But dats not d point, today i learnt that my own problems are trivial and this is d final lesson for me. Or so I thought..so at 1620 hrs two 'kids' (cos they're only 18) comes in and wanna donate blood..ok so their dad's the patient..right daddy's blood is O Positive, n so I check d son's blood type first..nw Im normally not attuned to patient's feelings cos dat is rightly professional to get on w d job..but when he came in with wet eyes, I mean I can understand cos dad's in surgery & it was already trauma for d poor kid to have that I mean wat can u expect fm dat tender age, but u knw when he broke down when I told him that he was B Positive blood type...& his sister was B type as well...my heart broke there & then..luckily his older bro n frens helped out to get other friends to donate..anyway thats stage 1, nw comes stage 2..just reached home fm 1 hospital at 2130 hrs after having my heart shattered in an argument, call up my cuz..n HE says he's going to hospital..Im like "why are u going to hospital?" and he goes "Uncle Two fell down and is in hospital nw, unstable and unconscious, with a fractured pelvis (hip bone) & 2 vertebrae (spine) fracture something or other.." Right. "Ok can u drop over and pick me up n we go visit him" *still have no clue as to hw serious it is* until i reach the hospital and see him lying almost comatose on the bed with drips everywhere, connected to an ECG machine and getting blood transfusion cos his blood pressure is too low & unstable..with d doctors description of injured bladder, fractured pelvis (hip bone), broken arm, hopefully will stable within 24 hrs...probably need 2nd surgery to stabilise the hip bone fracture...then it hits me...i dunno how to describe that feeling...I seriously dont...

The mind and heart association..

The mind and d heart are two fickle associations...seriously I think its all in d head...u know how u long for something or some situation to happen, and get depressed over it, then u get this crushed feeling in your heart, sorrow and all dat..then when ur bz at work, it all goes away because u concentrate...at work. But the minute, the VERY minute you get spare time to yourself it all comes back...like I said, fickle. So the only solution is?Get as tired as possible, so that u drop dead literally (well, almost) & not have to think abt it..makes sense...if it wasnt so exhausting...well..life goes on, and it gets a little, minuscle, but little better each day to face reality & make sure life goes on...the thing is, maybe, just maybe, I might be able to give myself wholly again....in the meantime just be happy for others...